It is 2021 and Malaysia is still in the mid of the COVID 19 pandemic. Worried? Yes. Uncertaint? Of course. Scared? Absolutely!
I'm in Shah Alam, Selangor. A place that recorded almost 7k positive cases daily and the rest of my family is in Kelantan. I got my first jab two days ago and experiencing fever and headache (they were gone after 48 hrs), but my heart felt uneasy still. I have a lot in my mind currently (which lead me to this post).
Even after my first dose, I am still worried. I am worried on how the people that were supposed to be in charge of our country seems like living in a different world from ours. People are suffering but none of them showing remorse or being sympathetic towards us. A lot of people commit sui**** because they gave up on whatever happened in this world and this make me sad. Heck, those people just went off "ianya berdosa blah blah blah" like where is your humanity? You are suppose to take care of us!
And now one of my cousins, who studied in Shah Alam, caught the disease. This is the nightmare that I would want to avoid. I prayed all day and all night to The Almighty Allah to protect my family from this deadly disease,, but of course He would know better and I believe in His action. I am not blaming the fate, I just want to rant, to get my mind off of something.
I have been having trouble to sleep due to the overthinking at nights. And all of the things I mentioned above are the cause of my overthinking. The fact that I am alone here, without my family near me make it worse. I almost had anxiety and I am grateful my friends are around. It has been months since I went home. I need hugs. Hugs from my family. Hugs make everything better.
The frontliners are angels. My only hope is for them to not give up on us. Please. Ya Allah please give them strength. They are our only hope. Grant them the highest paradise in the afterlife. Ease their burden in this world. Give them abundant of bounty. Let us win this war, Ya Allah. Please.
Also, please ease my mind every night. I'm only 25, and I don't want the insomnia.
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